Thank you for sharing such a personal story and written so beautifully. I loved the part you wrote about being made of magic and being tricked. and I agree, there is everything wrong with alcohol yet we are the ones somehow blamed for not being able to 'handle' this addictive substance. I quit five years ago and while I have gone through some really difficult times since quitting, it's nothing compared to the shame and horror of the drinking days. I do feel like I have my magic back. I am back.